No - 100

I don't know what to say. I maybe had two days a little off. Like over by a hundred calories, but compensated that with 4 days of morning and night workouts. I am working my tail off, no literally, I got a compliment on the cuteness of my "tail."

So what do I do now?

Binge on ice cream, chocolate, cookies, cake, big turk, oh henry, kit kat, mint aero, rolo, doritos, and slurpee.

NOT ON YOUR LIFE.

It is not worth it, I have come too far. I don't want to do that. I want to be strong, I want to be positive, I want to just keep going no mater what. You know what, scratch that, I am strong, I am positive, I am going to keep going no mater what. I have 98 pounds of proof that what I am doing ie journaling, watching portions, exercising, going to group, makes me lose weight so I will continue to do so.

Still, if you were here to ask, yes, I threw a physical hissy fit when I went to weigh in today. I did manage to keep the tears to a minimum. But seriously, AHHHHHHHHHH!

I feel as though the gauntlet has been thrown down, and in case you are wondering yes I am picking it up. I will beat this, I will win.

All I can control is my eating and exercise.

I was reading in Jesus the Christ by James E. Talmage. When Jesus walked on water to the apostles in the ship. It is actually found in Matthew 14: 22-33. Elder Talmage writes the following quote about it.

Into every adult human life come experiences like unto the battling of the storm-tossed voyagers with contrary winds and threatening seas; ofttimes the night of struggle and danger is far advanced before succor appears; and then too frequently the saving aid is mistaken for a greater terror. As came unto Peter and his terrified companions in the midst of the turbulent waters, so comes to all who toil in faith, the voice of the Deliverer - "It is I; be not afraid"

There is a ridiculous amount of weirdness going on in my life right now. I am in a storm. It really feels like I have knocked out Goliath and drug him off the battle field only to walk into a storm. I know there must be a saving aid on the way but I am terrified of it?
Am I scared of 100?
Is it just a matter of time till I get there or am I scared to reach that?
Where is my confidence? Where is my spirit of adventure?
I don't think I am scared of it. In fact I want it pretty badly.

I am toiling in faith and I have heard, and felt the voice of the Deliverer in so many different ways in the last couple of weeks. Which has strengthened my testimony. Whether it was a phone call from a friend, the gift of a scarf, a hug, a compliment, a great article, a thought from a book, or an encouraging word. I know I am not alone or forgotten in my storm.
So as for 100 well there is always next week.